Thursday, November 26, 2009 ;
1:10 AM
ImprovementsThursday, 26 November 2009
I'm so glad that I finally passed my IPPT but I thought I deserved silver for my effort. Just because of a fucked up commander. He made me mount on the bar for like 20 secs, demanding me to straighten my arms when they were already straighten. After that, when he finally allow me to carry on with my chin up. Apparently I did 8 chin ups, he only counted 3. Again cause he claimed that I didn't straighten my arms. What the fuck lah. As a result I had to go on a second attempt, fortunately I managed to do 6 chin ups to pass the IPPT.
I must say I have improved quite alot over the past few weeks. My 2.4km run timing improved drastically. From 11.17 mins to 10 mins flat which is my personal best. I guess I should give myself a pat on the back. I'm starting to gain back some of my self confidence which I have lost. To the people who always encourage and support me. I have not failed you. Thanks guys! I will not stop improving! This blog entry is dedicated to you guys! Cheers!
PS: Boring boring. Other than army stuff, I don't have anything else to blog about. Sorry people. I feel that I'm starting to lose touch with reality. Save me anyone?! :(
Signing off
Raymond
Sunday, November 15, 2009 ;
10:13 AM
ConfidenceSunday 15 November 2009
I'm beginning to lose that little self confidence that I have gained during my poly days. Cause I was always considered one of the better students in class. I could do good presentation and was one of the very few who got an A for FYP. All these things boosted my confidence in myself.
Now. Back to square one. I'm a guy with no confidence in his capabilities and abilities again. I feel so useless. Why other people can be so successful while I'm always a burden to them. I worked really hard and yes I see some improvements but it's not enough. I'm still lagging behind others.
I guess that lack of confidence and hesitation has made me become a weak soldier. I don't want to be a weak soldier anymore. I'm not giving up just yet. I will still work hard. I will be successful. Watch me! Fuck you bastards who look down on me. I will fuckin prove you people wrong! Thanks to those who encouraged and consoled me, especially my section mates! THANKS!
Good news:
I already met the minimum requirements to graduate from Basic Military Training!
Passing Out Parade -> 9 December 2009 :)
Signing off
Raymond
Do you know how much I'm missing you?
Do you know how miserable I feel whenever I think of you?
I love you.
Saturday, October 17, 2009 ;
1:04 PM
Life in TekongSunday 17 October 2009
Hey everyone! I'm finally back in Singapore mainland. For the past 9 days, I have been training very hard in Pulau Tekong. Seriously speaking, the training is freaking tough, our schedule is like damn packed. However, I really enjoyed my first week in Tekong. It is tough yet fun at the same time. My bunkmates are a fun bunch of people to hang out with. People of different personality coming together complementing each other's weakness. Coy Gryphon Section 2 rocks! Another thing, I fired my first 6 live rounds and 5 of them hit the target board. No words can describe how I felt when I was holding the rifle. SHIOK!!!
Before I enlist, I did something really stupid. For the first time in my life, I actually went into a florist shop and bought a potted posy for someone really special to me. As expected, the reaction to it was bad. To be frank, I really regret doing that. I ruined the friendship for the second time because of my own stupidity. I guess there's nothing I can do to salvage it? I can only hope for the best. I'm sorry Shirleen. Forgive me. :(
For now, I just want to do well and be one of the best soldier. I will work hard. Low Rope, Jacob's ladder and Chin up, I will overcome you!
The day before I enlist, I took this picture with my PINK IC! I miss you so much!
Signing off
Raymond
Monday, August 10, 2009 ;
2:10 PM
Last Entry?Monday 10 August 2009
I really don't have the heart to keep my blog alive anymore. This could well be my last entry. (or maybe not?) I'm not gonna close down this blog though, it contains most of my memories for the past 3 years.
What I'm gonna write in the next paragraph will not make any sense to most people. So actually no point reading it, it's just for myself. Goodbye to the handful of readers of my blog! I might have the motivation blog again when I'm army! TAKE CARE! :D
I'm just hoping you will be reading this Miss Wong (Workaholic).
What's done is done.
What I've already said cannot be taken back.
I really regret saying those things to you.
I'm someone who doesn't know how to express myself.
Actually it was the first time in my entire I've said this sort of things to a girl.
I just hope you will forgive me for saying those things in such a stupid way.
What I want to say is... I really cherish our friendship more than anything else.
I don't want to lose such a good friend like you just like this.
As long as I'm still in a position to care for you
And
As long as you are happy,
Nothing else matters.
But, I really don't know how to approach you.
Although I have not been contacting for the past 3 weeks.
I just want to let you know that I still care for you.
Signing off
Raymond
Friday, June 19, 2009 ;
8:34 PM
My 21st BirthdayFriday 19 June 2009
Time really flies man. I'm officially an adult. I feel so old already. Celebrated my birthday last saturday on the 13th. I'm so glad that most of my close friends remembered my birthday! Even though, I haven't been contacting them often. At least, I know that I'm not forgotten and they love me. =x
Early in the morning went to James house to have breakfast. James was the chef. I love the scramble eggs and sausages! Thank you James and Jamie!
After breakfast, went to escape with James, Jamie and Mohsen for the first time in my entire life. Could you believe it? The haunted mansion was lame but GO KART was awesome! Hahaha! Super fun! Okay, I embarassed myself embarrassed in front of quite alot of people by ramming onto the "wall". Nevertheless, I felt it was money well spent for me. :D
In the evening, I met up with WeiLiang, Rayson, Caspar and Nicholas at Marina Square. We went to Glutton's Bay for dinner. Wootz! We ordered satay, chicken wings, carrot cake, BBQ stingray and Sambal Kang Kong! Thank you so much for the treat WeiLiang! Right after dinner, we went to Game Haven @ Clarke Quay to play DotA. Weelee came to met up with us too. Had lots of fun that day. Love you guys! Thank you!! Argh shit, forgot to take pictures with them! :(
The next day (14th June) was great as well! I'm too lazy to type out the details, I shall let the photos tell the story. Hahaha!!
HAHAHA!!! I just want to say thank you to James, Jamie, Jamie's parents, Jared, Nicole and Adam for everything! No words can describe how much appreciate what you guys have done for me on my 21st birthday.I can only say thanks, thanks and thanks!
On the actual day (my birthday) which was 15th June. Met up with Serene at BP Plaza. Sat down at starbucks and chit chat. Although we live very near each other but we have never came out to have a drink and chit chat. I think we should do that more often. She passed me my birthday card and gift! Thank you so much Serene!
At night, I had a shock! WeiLiang came to my house with a cake after his work and driving lesson. I was so damn surprised! I could see from his face, he was tired but still made the effort to buy a cake to celebrate for me! After, the "cut cake ceremony", he sat down to have dinner with mummy and I. I really really appreciate it bro. I love you!! :)
I had a memorable and enjoyable 21st birthday. Thank you everyone including those who sent me your wishes. Special Thanks to WeiLiang, James, Jamie and Serene! I love you guys!
Signing off
Raymond
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 ;
7:02 PM
English Champion 08/09Wednesday, 20th May 2009
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching up up up!
Just like the busby days and days gone by,
We’ll keep the red flags flying high,
Your gonna see us all from far and wide,
Your gonna hear the Mans that sing with pride.
United, Man united,
We’re the boys in red and we're on our way to Wemberly!
Wemberly, Wemberly,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wemberly,
Wemberly, Wemberly,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wemberly
In ’77 in the stockham team,
Back in December '83,
And everyone will no just who we are,
They'll be singing que sera sera
United, Man united,
We’re the boys in red and we're on our way to Wemberly!
Wemberly, Wemberly,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wemberly,
Wemberly, Wemberly,
We're the famous Man united and we're going to Wemberly
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching up up up!
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching up up up!
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
Glory glory Man united,
As the reds go marching up up up!
Manchester United is the newly crowned English Champion.
It's their 3rd consecutive premier league title.
What an achievement!
It would be wonderful if they could wrap up the season with a 2nd consecutive UEFA Champions League trophy.
I'm so looking forward to the UEFA Champions League Final on 28th May - Manchester United vs FC Barcelona!
If United manage to win it again, they will be the first ever team in history to retain the title.
The whole freaking Man Utd squad would become living legends!
I'm so excited! Come on Red Devils, you can do it!
Signing off
Raymond
Tuesday, May 12, 2009 ;
12:54 AM
Tough LuckTuesday 12 May 2009
Sigh. I saw a guy holding her hand at PS on saturday night. He's her boyfriend, I assume. Okay, not surprising at all. I just feel so stupid. Why am I even thinking of courting someone I don't even know? I seriously don't have a clue. No matter how many times I asked myself this same question, I will still end up with the same conclusion which is I don't know.
I really couldn't believe that I had the thought drinking alcohol that day. People who knows me well enough will know that I hate alcohol the most. I actually gulped almost one full bottle of Bacardi Breeze down my throat without even hesitating. It really tasted like plain water. I don't understand why.
Why am I always in this kind of situation? Why am I always getting false hopes. Just when I thought that I will never ever see her in my life again. I saw her working at a retail shop in PS 2 weeks ago. Then when I was about to make my first move, I had to see this.
Oh well, I guess it's better to know earlier than to find out later. It's just a silly crush anyway. I will get over it very soon. Why history have to repeat itself again. The only reason why I'm upset is it reminded me of how I got my heart broken the previous time. It has came back to haunt me. It took me almost 2 years to recover from that wound. ARGH! Okay, I shall not continue. @#@#%^$&!!!!
Self consolation: That proves that I have good taste. LOL! =P
Signing off
Raymond
