My Memories

Friday, February 05, 2010 ;

8:29 PM

Life in SMTI

5 February 2010

Long time no blog. This is my first entry in year 2010. I really have alot of things to share but I don't think anyone will be interested to read it. I have learned alot of things in the past 7 weeks. I'm about to complete my medic course. I still don't know whether I'll be able to make it through but at least I have two certs in the bag already. I'm proud to announce that I'm already a qualifed person to perform CPR and also a certified AED provider. YEAH!! I'm sure it'll come in handy in years to come.

Life in School of Medical Training Instiute(SMTI) is boring and monotonous. It took me quite awhile to adapt to life in there. One simple reason why I could not adapt to life in SMTI, that reason is I hate science, lectures and to be a medic but I don't have a freaking choice. I have to attend many many lectures and countless practical lessons every week. There will be like one or two tests every week and I almost forgot to mention about the needle poking sessions. I really cannot take it anymore but I still have to. Sigh. I'm tasked to save other people then who's gonna save me?! Someone please save me! I don't wanna be a medic!

Okay I shall stop whinning cause it's not gonna help. Life still goes on. I shall just bear with it and try my best to complete the course and get the level 2 paramedic certificate. At least I know that I'm not wasting my time currently. I gain new knowledge everyday and these knowledge could be applied next time in my life.

SEEK, SAVE, SERVE! SO THEY MAY LIVE!

Signing off
Raymond

I Walk Alone

Friday, December 18, 2009 ;

4:11 PM

My Army Vocation

Friday 18 December 2009

Yeah! I'm no longer a Recruit anymore, just passed out of my basic military training on December 9. I have been posted to Medical Training Institute at Nee Soon Camp as a Combat Medic. Which means my rank will remain as Private for quite some time. Oh well, I don't know what kind of shit will I go through for months to come. One thing for sure is on top of carrying the usual field pack load (15kg), I will still have to carry a stretcher and medical equipments for route marches and outfields. Sigh.

I'm so disappointed in myself because I always hoped I could get into SISPEC and pass out as a 3rd Sergeant but I failed to achieve it. Oh well, what I can do now is to do my best and hopefully I will perform much better this time round. I will learn basic medical and life saving knowledge. I hope it can be useful to me in the near future! I strongly believe I will survive and grow physically and mentally stronger after my 2 years in army.

Congrats to Eric and Samuel for getting into OCS and the rest of my bunk mates for getting into SISPEC! I will always remember Gryphon Platoon 1 Section 2! I will miss every single one of you! Cheers!

Here are some of my POP photos:

Hmmm.. On the second thought, I'm wondering if I should "chao keng"? Cause I really hate my vocation! Path 1 is try my best, chiong all the way and hope that the things that I'm going to learn will be useful. Path 2 is chao keng all the way and down PES to get the hell out of this idiotic vocation! I'll must make a decision soon! Haiz.. Sad life. :(

Signing off
Raymond

I Walk Alone

Thursday, November 26, 2009 ;

1:10 AM

Improvements

Thursday, 26 November 2009

I'm so glad that I finally passed my IPPT but I thought I deserved silver for my effort. Just because of a fucked up commander. He made me mount on the bar for like 20 secs, demanding me to straighten my arms when they were already straighten. After that, when he finally allow me to carry on with my chin up. Apparently I did 8 chin ups, he only counted 3. Again cause he claimed that I didn't straighten my arms. What the fuck lah. As a result I had to go on a second attempt, fortunately I managed to do 6 chin ups to pass the IPPT.

I must say I have improved quite alot over the past few weeks. My 2.4km run timing improved drastically. From 11.17 mins to 10 mins flat which is my personal best. I guess I should give myself a pat on the back. I'm starting to gain back some of my self confidence which I have lost. To the people who always encourage and support me. I have not failed you. Thanks guys! I will not stop improving! This blog entry is dedicated to you guys! Cheers!

PS: Boring boring. Other than army stuff, I don't have anything else to blog about. Sorry people. I feel that I'm starting to lose touch with reality. Save me anyone?! :(

Signing off
Raymond

I Walk Alone

Sunday, November 15, 2009 ;

10:13 AM

Confidence

Sunday 15 November 2009

I'm beginning to lose that little self confidence that I have gained during my poly days. Cause I was always considered one of the better students in class. I could do good presentation and was one of the very few who got an A for FYP. All these things boosted my confidence in myself.

Now. Back to square one. I'm a guy with no confidence in his capabilities and abilities again. I feel so useless. Why other people can be so successful while I'm always a burden to them. I worked really hard and yes I see some improvements but it's not enough. I'm still lagging behind others.

I guess that lack of confidence and hesitation has made me become a weak soldier. I don't want to be a weak soldier anymore. I'm not giving up just yet. I will still work hard. I will be successful. Watch me! Fuck you bastards who look down on me. I will fuckin prove you people wrong! Thanks to those who encouraged and consoled me, especially my section mates! THANKS!

Good news:

I already met the minimum requirements to graduate from Basic Military Training!
Passing Out Parade -> 9 December 2009 :)

Signing off
Raymond

Do you know how much I'm missing you?
Do you know how miserable I feel whenever I think of you?
I love you.

I Walk Alone

Saturday, October 17, 2009 ;

1:04 PM

Life in Tekong

Sunday 17 October 2009

Hey everyone! I'm finally back in Singapore mainland. For the past 9 days, I have been training very hard in Pulau Tekong. Seriously speaking, the training is freaking tough, our schedule is like damn packed. However, I really enjoyed my first week in Tekong. It is tough yet fun at the same time. My bunkmates are a fun bunch of people to hang out with. People of different personality coming together complementing each other's weakness. Coy Gryphon Section 2 rocks! Another thing, I fired my first 6 live rounds and 5 of them hit the target board. No words can describe how I felt when I was holding the rifle. SHIOK!!!

Before I enlist, I did something really stupid. For the first time in my life, I actually went into a florist shop and bought a potted posy for someone really special to me. As expected, the reaction to it was bad. To be frank, I really regret doing that. I ruined the friendship for the second time because of my own stupidity. I guess there's nothing I can do to salvage it? I can only hope for the best. I'm sorry Shirleen. Forgive me. :(

For now, I just want to do well and be one of the best soldier. I will work hard. Low Rope, Jacob's ladder and Chin up, I will overcome you!

The day before I enlist, I took this picture with my PINK IC! I miss you so much!

Signing off
Raymond

I Walk Alone

Monday, August 10, 2009 ;

2:10 PM

Last Entry?

Monday 10 August 2009

I really don't have the heart to keep my blog alive anymore. This could well be my last entry. (or maybe not?) I'm not gonna close down this blog though, it contains most of my memories for the past 3 years.

What I'm gonna write in the next paragraph will not make any sense to most people. So actually no point reading it, it's just for myself. Goodbye to the handful of readers of my blog! I might have the motivation blog again when I'm army! TAKE CARE! :D

I'm just hoping you will be reading this Miss Wong (Workaholic).

What's done is done.
What I've already said cannot be taken back.
I really regret saying those things to you.
I'm someone who doesn't know how to express myself.
Actually it was the first time in my entire I've said this sort of things to a girl.
I just hope you will forgive me for saying those things in such a stupid way.

What I want to say is... I really cherish our friendship more than anything else.
I don't want to lose such a good friend like you just like this.
As long as I'm still in a position to care for you
And
As long as you are happy,
Nothing else matters.

But, I really don't know how to approach you.
Although I have not been contacting for the past 3 weeks.
I just want to let you know that I still care for you.

Signing off
Raymond

I Walk Alone

Friday, June 19, 2009 ;

8:34 PM

My 21st Birthday

Friday 19 June 2009

Time really flies man. I'm officially an adult. I feel so old already. Celebrated my birthday last saturday on the 13th. I'm so glad that most of my close friends remembered my birthday! Even though, I haven't been contacting them often. At least, I know that I'm not forgotten and they love me. =x

Early in the morning went to James house to have breakfast. James was the chef. I love the scramble eggs and sausages! Thank you James and Jamie!

After breakfast, went to escape with James, Jamie and Mohsen for the first time in my entire life. Could you believe it? The haunted mansion was lame but GO KART was awesome! Hahaha! Super fun! Okay, I embarassed myself embarrassed in front of quite alot of people by ramming onto the "wall". Nevertheless, I felt it was money well spent for me. :D

In the evening, I met up with WeiLiang, Rayson, Caspar and Nicholas at Marina Square. We went to Glutton's Bay for dinner. Wootz! We ordered satay, chicken wings, carrot cake, BBQ stingray and Sambal Kang Kong! Thank you so much for the treat WeiLiang! Right after dinner, we went to Game Haven @ Clarke Quay to play DotA. Weelee came to met up with us too. Had lots of fun that day. Love you guys! Thank you!! Argh shit, forgot to take pictures with them! :(

The next day (14th June) was great as well! I'm too lazy to type out the details, I shall let the photos tell the story. Hahaha!!

HAHAHA!!! I just want to say thank you to James, Jamie, Jamie's parents, Jared, Nicole and Adam for everything! No words can describe how much appreciate what you guys have done for me on my 21st birthday.I can only say thanks, thanks and thanks!

On the actual day (my birthday) which was 15th June. Met up with Serene at BP Plaza. Sat down at starbucks and chit chat. Although we live very near each other but we have never came out to have a drink and chit chat. I think we should do that more often. She passed me my birthday card and gift! Thank you so much Serene!

At night, I had a shock! WeiLiang came to my house with a cake after his work and driving lesson. I was so damn surprised! I could see from his face, he was tired but still made the effort to buy a cake to celebrate for me! After, the "cut cake ceremony", he sat down to have dinner with mummy and I. I really really appreciate it bro. I love you!! :)

I had a memorable and enjoyable 21st birthday. Thank you everyone including those who sent me your wishes. Special Thanks to WeiLiang, James, Jamie and Serene! I love you guys!

Signing off
Raymond

I Walk Alone